Love of a father

None can compare.

Rumbling Tummy

"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear"



-KJV speaks to me.

Point

Heavy heart. Heavy shoulders. Heavy thoughts.
I hate feeling burdened.
Sigh, Lord, please hold my hand. Please please please please.

I need your prayers: yours and yours. A few seconds is more than enough.

D E P R I V E D

of sleep, motivation, and strength :( I dislike feeling "off" and not on the right track..especially when it comes to school. I slept at 9:10 PM last night and woke up at 6AM to get some studying done for my A&P test today. Now, with some time left over before I get ready for class, I can update everyone with everything.

I haven't been working out, consistently at least. When I went home for Spring break, I only conquered two days of P90, and set up "complete laziness" for the remaining week. When I got back to SAU on Sunday, I only did one day and ended up not doing yesterday's work-out. BLAH! Like stated before, I dislike being off-track. TODAY, I will do my very best to complete all homework assignments and follow through with today's work-out.

Hmmm, spring break in a nutshell was fun, exciting, and refreshing. I can't say enough how much I love my family and only want the best for them. I want good health for my pops, a good environment for my bro, and strength for my mama. Seriously. At this time, I want all of us to get ready for God's coming, but- with all the distractions; it feels impossible. Back to phase 1: the .5 Christian. Ehhhhhhh

Photos from the week I was home :)

















































It was a good eventful week :) I'm thankful for the people I spent time with. Now, I'm awaiting summer to be with my girlssss and hopefully get back into bouldering. My bf and Mia were disappointed that I didn't even step foot into Threshold. Honestly, it's because I DO NOT want to come face to face with my suckiness in climbing. Hahaa...sad sad thaaaang. Wishing everyone a good and successful week.




"Replenish my faith."

Raphael Saadiq

"It was just that kiss from you that showed me what I needed most."


He brings the blast from the past with something like the Temptations

"When I look at your face, I know God did good."


Words spoken right.



"Something about his music seems so lovingly sincere."

PRAY

Currently in Palm Desert at a hotel with my mama and enjoying all the amenities it has to offer. BUT, my heart aches reading about what's going on in Chile. I told my mom about it and she said : "Signs of the times, babygirl." Sigh. I know I'm supposed to be grateful for God's soon return, but where do I stand? All the evidence is being shown to me every single day. Earthquake in Haiti, constant earthquakes in California, recent earthquake in Chile, crazy winter storms in the Northeast -- the list goes on and on and on and on. All I seriously feel like doing is getting on a plane and assisting those in need. Giving $ for donations is cool too, I'm grateful for support programs like those, but man, I need somethin' more.

I'm having a constant mind-struggle with all things "religious". God's providing me with all that I need and even everything that I want. I know He's asking me to do something for His glory.

A couple of days ago, I watched a documentary that broke my <3:



"Why is it that when I play basketball, I'm considered a jock, and everyone still loves hanging around me? Why is it that when I listen to rap and have a certain accent, I'm considered a gangster, and yet, everyone still loves hanging around me? But why is it that when I want to love Jesus and glorify Him in all ways, nobody wants to hang around me anymore?"

Shame.
I need strength. Forreal though. I'm all talk about religion, but when it comes down to it: I seriously wish I could drop all the things that keep me from experiencing a genuine Christian faith. It bugs me, ya'know, when I hear people saying "If you're gonna be 1/2 Christian--don't be Christian at all." Blaaaaaah. I need you, Lord. Everyone does. Plz show them their need for you.

P90x Journey Thus Far

I have always been a legs and arms work-out kinda girl. Specifically targeting my bicep and forgetting all the other muscles. (Not good) I didn't realize how weak my shoulders and triceps were until I started doing the arm + shoulder work outs for P90x. After only 9 days, I can already see results. My left arm is still not as caught up as my right, but I'm trying my best to equal the two. Haha. Thanks for your support in helping me get through this hell of a workout..especially Randy who taught me everything I needed to learn in order to successfully reap my rewards :) Thanks boo.








^ i'm weird.



^ gotta smile :)



I hope everyone survives this week! I'm thankful that SAU has an early spring break. I'm leaving for home tomorrow noon!
I'll be praying for safe travels <3